Than again it the same bloody life…! One day you think you got it all, but the next 100 days will make you go “Think again mate, your worst nightmare is here…”

And here i am holding lots of upsetting thoughts, sometimes i burst and make it  look like i flipped out, but in reality i am screaming inside every second, hoping, thinking, praying to get thing right in life.

Lot of people turn up for help when they need it, do i really have someone to turn to, to help my mind falling down the infinite drop hole…! Sometimes it feels to just kill my self, believe i would just fucking do it if i could.

After my beloved pet “LULU” died, i thought i could get another pet and thing might stop becoming worst. Trust me you don’t wanna loose your pet (with whom you share a really great bond) when you are going through the toughest phrase of your life (This is where i got dumped off my ass!). Still sometimes her thoughts cross my mind, don’t know why but i ll never be able to completely forget this one!

And on top of it loosing a pet for whom you really care is just a pin prick straight through your heart. The rabbits i have now are just completely ignoring me, staying away from me.

Some times i really feel have i really got this low? Oh man! Have i really rotted up this much! That my fucking life is a joke now!

You know, there are a few moments in life when you just realize that even after having 80+ friends on Facebook, you really don’t have anyone to turn to in your saddest time. Keeping on searching your Phone Book all the time, that is there anybody you can call just to share things in confidence. and you keep searching and searching and searching…. but then your phone book runs out….

Yeah this is this is what is exactly happening for  while now! And there is nothing much which can be done about it. Listening music all the time trying to dissolve the restlessness i have inside, but than you realize that the track running on your music player is fucking too relevant to your sickening story of this pathetic life.

And here i am writing a blog, that there is someone reading this thinking “What a fucking looser (Gosh, this word reminds me something), must be a real social reject!”

I sometimes feel like crying, like right now when i am writing this blog, and a feeling of a vacuum is just eating me alive that i am just falling down a never ending hole, and there is no hope.

Some times even i think, why the fuck am i blogging this or what the hell am i doing? but than i realize this one big truth, if i don’t have a partner to share things with or just lit my mind run free…! and no body is there listening to me or i am just hurt inside, i can just write my feelings out here.

I am just too fucking sick of this life now, sometimes i just feel like killing my self and relieving this world from me and my sickening life!

It has been almost 6 months for my breakup with a girl i really valued, but hard luck for me! she didn’t for me! It still burns me up when ever i get the flashbacks.

Well as everybody knows that Old Memories can open your wounds, its still the same with me. Believe me or not, i have started isolating my self,  in other terms “SOCIAL SUICIDE” is the right word for it!

This is one of my real blog entries in a long time. i didn’t have time to do anything lately. Had been low on fb. These days its the IPL fever to everybody! almost everyone watching the games….!

How i have been and what i hold!

Lost some weight lately, stopped going to gym, health gone out the window. Just got mom diagnosed, she has a back-problem. so we gotta go in to cut her work load!

Giving Sh!t back

There is one of my client for whom i had done some work. now the client’s son (is or was) on good terms with me! Made the project work in January 2012. 2 1/2 months later thay wanted some changes and content add-on to their project. did that. Data was not provided on some objects, so i had to improvise. Although i respect everyone and respect elders rich and poor alike, because i know that it damn hard to earn a living these days. (s)he started abusing me for some technical things, which she could not operate herself. Also the Language was just OMFG!
. On phone she was just not having respect for anything, but i kept my calm as long as i could. It was of no use.  So we finally decided to release that client for our tags. I will be releasing the email for public soon in which we mentioned that we are releasing the client and WHY! | But i guess its not the right time to release them now. Any way we respect everybody and will help anybody out of the way if they give us the equal respect as we give them.

FaceBored

I am just sick and tired of Facebook these days. I finally realized that Facebook is not the right place to share your thoughts, i prefer my blog and would try my best to maintain it!

MY EX-PROJECT

Recently, just out of frustration of my breakup, and the blues, wounds it left for me. I decided to dedicate the creature a Web Page. Since she was Exactly precise in putting a needle straight through my heart. I guessed that was the least i could do. I will be adding more information in my next blog entry. but for now the link for that webpage is http://www.aasthayadav.com/?ref=wj

Wait for my next blog entry….
till then Cheers… !

I was excited when i found out that my rabbit pair had given babies, 6 of them. We took care of them, took all of them to vet on the same day they were born. Since my doe is a first time mother, she is not taking care of the kids! She might not even know she had babies…

And there both the parent rabbits are playing around, and the kids abandoned. Me and my sister took care of them from the moment they were born. But Sadly our best efforts are not enough. 2 of them died, 1 is fighting for his life, while thanks to god other 3 are fine!

I know i should not be having a guilty mind, because i hardly know the kits. But it was my job to take care of them, sadly i dont even know what is happening…

There is only one thing i want to pray right now…

Dear God, I thank you for bringing such small, beautiful 6 baby creatures into this world, you took 2 of them back for your self, 1 wants to come to you. I request you to kindly help him not to suffer! and keep the rest of them healthy for life. All i want is for them to have a great life! Help Them!!!!

And with this i am writing this blog entry at 02:35 AM on 08-April-2012. Hoping , Praying that some how these kids get the best of life to begin with…

UPDATE 08-APR-2012 (09:04 AM): 2 More died last night, I m doing everything in my power to make the last 2 survive….!

NEW UPDATE: none of the kits survived.( We tried hard, believe me!!!)

Hey we have just shifted most of our websites to a new server hopefully you will see a boost in performance…

Since i had been busy with real life, i didn’t get time to write much on this blog…

well i ll start posting soon, keep a look out…!

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I urge you to vote no on ACTA and to communicate its severe problems to your colleagues. ACTA’s vague language locks us into obsolete copyright and patent laws, preventing democracies from updating their laws to unlock new economic and social opportunities.It criminalizes harmless remixes by ordinary users if they achieve ‘a commercial scale’ (art 2.14.1) which many amateur videos do on sites like Youtube. And it criminalizes legitimate websites by making them responsible for user behavior (‘aiding and abetting’ art 2.14.4).Worse, it permanently bypasses the democratic process by empowering the ‘ACTA Committee’ to ‘propose amendments to [ACTA]‘ without your approval. (art 6.4) In other words, it’s impossible to know what you’re voting for.The global movement against the US law SOPA showed that internet freedom is a crucial issue which belongs in the legislative process of each country. You should view ACTA as an attempt by a handful of companies to circumvent the democratic process, and you should vote against it.Thank you. Please reply if you have any questions.

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1. ACTA locks countries into obsolete copyright and patent laws. If a democracy decides on less restrictive laws that reflect the reality of the internet, ACTA will prevent that.
2. ACTA criminalizes users by making noncommercial, harmless remixes into crimes if “on a commercial scale” (art 2.14.1). Many amateur works achieve a commercial scale on sites like Youtube. ACTA, like SOPA, could mean jail time for the Justin Biebers of the world.

1. ACTA Criminalizes legitimate websites, making them responsible for user behavior by “aiding and abetting”. (art 2.14.4). Like SOPA, the founders of your favorite sites could be sued or (worse) thrown in jail for copyright infringement by their users.
2. ACTA will let rightsholders use laughably inflated claims of damages (based on the disproven idea that every download or stream is a lost sale) to sue people. As if suing amazing artists, video makers and websites for millions wasn’t hard enough!
3. ACTA Permanently bypasses democracy by giving the “ACTA Committee” the power to “propose amendments to [ACTA]” (art 6.4). In other words, voting for ACTA writes a blank check to an unelected committee. These closed-door proceedings will be a playground for SOPA-supporters like the MPAA.
4. Trade agreements are a gaping loophole, a backdoor track that, even though it creates new law, is miles removed from democracy. It’s a secretive process that’s tailor-made to serve politically connected companies. And the movie studios behind SOPA? They’re experts at it. If we can’t make secretive trade agreements harder to pass than US law, our internet’s future belongs to the lobbyists behind SOPA.